Try sleeping with someone almost everynight in your life and the next thing you know, you are sleeping alone for the rest of the time coz that person is no longer beside you..

i felt the loneliness and emptiness when she is not here..

the house seems different whenever i come back from work.

So quiet

She used to be my bolster.

she used to be someone who i last kiss goodnight.

she used to be someone who crack up some nonsense thing to say ( coz is not relevant at all) before i sleep.

she used to be someone who who tells story abt her life thru war days, thru adoption days, thru her business days.

she was the one who sent me off to the school van that brought me to school everyday and waited for me till i come back (or so she said, she waited under the block all the time, n now to think of it, i don think she did tat! hee..but still it touched my heart when i think abt it right now)

she was the one who taught me how to tie my shoe lace when i was 7.

she was the one who brought rice and fed the birds everyday.

and she was the one who cooked for me telur mata lembu' or in another word fried egg everyday right after i end school.

and she was the one who was there for me when i first fracture my right hand

i miss nenek...