SMILE!!! DON B FOOL!!

time: 4.36pm
i was surprised u came.. n early that is....u've change? yeah i can SEE tat.. im not longer know who you are.. sad i must sae.. the title tat i 'agung-agungkan'.. no longer i want to sae to public... im a shame.. to think that i was content wif wat i have.. i was wrong.. i am so sad to receive tat email fr u.. it hurts to the MAX!!.. it hurts so bad that i could not scroll down to ur email n jus delete it.. coz seeing ur name jus make me wanna bang my head to the wall.. let alone i wanna read it again.. bcoz, i know, if i read it again, the feeling will come back again.. the feeling of jus wanna disappear fr the face of the earth! iwas really hurt by the words that u hurled to us.. UNFAIR is the word to summarize this whole crap thing.. i think we should have a chance to ask u what we did wrong... or what i did wrong.. or what she did wrong.. or where it went wrong!!.. its unfair to jus hurled the words to us n asked us to leave ya alone...

u made it sound that fr the start, we were the ones at fault... hmmm... i tot we were at the stage where we could accept everyone's shit n faults.. hmm... 5-6 yrs of friendship.. i tot it was long enough.. to know them.. yeah of course.. everyone change..n will change for the better.... i could accept change.. but not to this extent wher u want us to get out of ur life!!!.. N i was WRONG!!...

i think u will agree wif me that everyone is not perfect.. i may not realise that i was being domineering... but domineering to the friendship? ... i repeat this line again.. 'i tot we were at the stage where we could accept everyone's shit n faults'...i accepted who u r.. yeah,.. u have ur own faults too.... but we jus keep quiet.. coz we know if we talk abt it.. u will get defensive..

u know what.. there is a better way to settle this dispute.. instead of writing an email to us n hurt us this way.. u could talk to us abt this.. FACE-TO-FACE... settle it like an adult.. for GOD's sake.. we r 20.. to think that we have this kind of dispute at this age.. its so humiliating...n to think u settle it this way.. hmm.. its shows ur maturity..

yeah yeah yeah.. im being the evil nisa..

n u want us to smile at ya?? when i could not even think what to do when i face ya.. seriously..aku dah tawar hati....smile at ya but get out of ur life?. who do u think u r??? to ask us to do whatever u command... nisa, smile at me.. nisa.. leave me alone.. nisa, u r very domineering...hmm.. me being childish?... i think im confused!!..

bukan aku tak make the effort to talk to u b4 u sent that email.. i did.. i tried to call u. so many times.. i was ready to even drive up to ur house!!!...that was the day that u sent us that email...

aku seriously tak faham.. apa yg kau nak sebenarnya... aku sungguh terasa tawar hati..tawar hati nak menghadap kau.. tawar hati utk memberi senyuman kpd kau.. tawar hati utk bercakap pada kau.. kerana.. kata-kata kau.. sungguh telah menguris hati kami..

we r not the friends that bitching behind each other.. we have nvr done it.. that is why i WAS proud of our friendship..

i am so lost of words right now..

now.. another friend of ours, saying tat she would have done it long time ago.. but she endure.. what the fuck does that mean!!!!! n now being sensitive at everything we do.. OH GOD.. i cant take this anymore!!!..

FUCK WIF THE WHOLE THING LAR...

if u r reading this.. hmm... read lar.. im jus confused of the turn of event...

to mary... u make my saturday night miserable.. u could not stop talking!!!!.. there i was trying to get my sleep.. n there u r .... talking all the way.. hmm.. but hahaha... i love it.. thanks babe.. i can still remeber this line.. "isha, jgn tinggal kan aku".. n that accompany wif the rengekkan kau!!!.. hahaha.. i burst out laughing n ask u to shut the hell up...

to U n U who read this, n u know who u r.. argghhh.. i have nothing to sae anymore.. wanna condem us right.. hmm.. well.. what to do.. we will jus accept it.. coz we or i got nothing to sae anymore...

i may b writing this wif my anger accompanying it.. i was sad at first.. den aft some events, now im sicken of it!!!...

i have this NICEEEEE song for the background of my blog.. sang by Craig David.. 'Walking away'... arrr.. it fits the bill.. but.. darn... the song is not available in iwebtunes... so i put 'my sacrifice'.. hahaha...

aku sungguh dah tawar hati.!!!!

ur words haunts me..

FUHH... this is a long entry..

i jus wish i could turn the hands of time.. i jus hope the best for US!!!

im sorry if i hurt ya this way... but i jus could not contain it.. i have no problem if u wanna talk abt it... but then.. as u said ' leave me alone'...